Thursday, September 27, 2012

a meaning

There is an argument I have heard many times. Is life predetermined? Were our lives mapped out for us and do humans have a set path, or do we have free will and suffer the consequences of our actions?

I believe there is a way for both realities to coexist.

After speaking with Angela and hearing her theory, we have come to a similar conclusion. We believe the universe, our universe, every individual universe, is a single entity. A single consciousness, and every being a piece of the bigger picture. We as people are individual thoughts of this entity capable of producing energy (our own thoughts), positive or negative, to contribute to the growth and expansion of the universe. Every life form an energy source, every body a vessel, every mind a delivery system, all contributing and resulting to the same imminent goal: A supreme being, a supreme consciousness. It’s why we can’t clearly define humanity’s consciousness or soul, because we don’t really have one, we’re just apart of one giant one with the illusion of separatism. The physical barriers of self and of everything else is perceived in your head. Without that ego center, the barriers are gone. There is just one small factor in the way of reaching nirvana, together as one. When we reach nirvana, we give up our possessions and our identities (ego) and become a part of the universal energy. Because of this, every single person has value, the same value, no matter what. Nobody is worthless. Nobody is a waste. Nobody - no matter how vegetative, how disabled, how criminal, how lazy, we all contribute to the universal energy. All emit, produce, occupy, use, reuse and extinguish energy. All make a difference in the balance and all are needed. It’s a universal love and acceptance. A universal understanding. We can’t judge or hate anyone because everyone is a projection of self, a limb and a stem of our one universal energy flow, and we NEED negative energy. It’s vital and necessary, so we can’t fear it or hate it. We must respect all energy. The better the good people in the world are, the worse and more hateful others have to be to balance it out.

It’s like the universe is a giant brain, and it’s neurons (us) are becoming so independently intelligent that we’re starting to question our origins (the brain/universe). If our brains started asking about us, what would they find out? That they’re really the one’s who make us. We are our brains. Our brains decide our actions, our thoughts, our reactions, interests, likes and dislikes, our personality. So, what if the answer is the same with our universe? WE are our universe. WE create it and define it.

Life is predetermined in the sense that everything has a purpose and a goal. A thought has a beginning and an end, but we also have a consciousness, which means we can stray from the path and generate a new outcome. However, our purpose was always the same no matter how we end up. The cycle of the universe is all predetermined, as are most things in nature.

To live life by societies standards and norms is to give into your brain’s ego center. Embrace humanity, yes, but there’s a real point to life. A reason that life is predetermined and we all have a purpose... To contribute to the universal pulsing. Your life was planned, but it doesn’t mean that life has no meaning! To live and experience and learn as much as possible, to have substantial solid thought, so the energy you do give back is beneficial. Thought that springs new energy and helps the growth of the universe and the thriving of the expansion - A recycling and filtering all with the same goal - To achieve perfection. A perfect system, a perfect stream of energy.

It’s important to embrace humanity, and it’s important to embrace individuality and try to understand that we are hard-wired to be selfish and separate from everyone else. The goal of humanity is to acquire knowledge. People come and go from our lives as we need them. Sub consciously we attract and are attracted to the people that can contribute to our lives in the way we need them to at the time. Why would we be built for separation and selfishness, with barriers, when our purpose is to become one? We can’t BECOME one if we ARE one. We must learn to do this on our own and organically, so the process is genuine and everyone has reached nirvana individually to make a more solid and thorough connection. To reach nirvana we have to let go of self. Of ego. Of identity. It’s not supposed to be easy.

Thursday, August 30, 2012


Humanity isn't flawed.
No, not our minds, but our standards and expectations.
Why do we dream up a way of life we cannot achieve with expectations we cannot exceed? Is it some cruel joke? Some challenge of the brain to create..

Why do we thrive in the mundane and blame our mothers for everything? For slapping our bare bottoms until we had a voice, unawares that life is a series of unplanned and unprepared choice.
We are faced with situations we must deal with before we get all the facts. We are forced to discover  if we made the right decision after the damage has been done. And what good is this... To force us to be more observant when the distractions get worse? The noises louder and the lights brighter.

And more frequent the mind to spin out from the whirlwind of focus it delves on it all. Our eyes blur over and our hearing goes bad. We forget how to speak because we don't need to anymore.
And we are afraid to touch and to feel with our hands and our hearts.
And we slowly numb ourselves one sense at a time to the world we created for ourselves.

This is no symphony. No grandeur. No orchestrated achievement. This is death mask we wear in the form of planet earth. We are but insects set to warm and infect as a virus with one purpose and one goal. We aren't meant to dream. We aren't made to thrive. We must start anew to be alive.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

a question

If there were answers in the stars
And purging gods were not a farce,
Could it explain this constant strain?
Or why we're all just so afraid?
Or be a burden in the strain...
Well I, for one, would like to know,
Why there's a stigma with the blow.
Why all the best of it die young,
Or why we hurt the one's we love...

Sunday, June 24, 2012

a universe

I’ve been finding it very hard to judge anything anymore. Even people. Even people that seemingly do things I find wrong, I can only remember that it is my definition of wrong they are dejecting. I can only remember that people are hard wired to do what they do, like what they like, be who they are and they cannot change it. They can learn and grow, but the ground work is all still built the way it is. Your left brain hemisphere literally tells you your likes and dislikes and judges everything and categorizes it and determines whether you like it or not. I try to live in a balance between both hemispheres. In my right mind, things are equal and peaceful and balanced and the universe is one and my ego center is nonexistent. So, I may judge and categorize something I witness at first, but I actively chose to not let it affect my reactions or how I perceive that person or thing. I actively chose to remember that everything is the way it is, and my personal opinions make little or no difference, that it’s the brain of the person that makes them who they are, and if their brain doesn’t coincide peacefully with mine, no big deal, I just move on.

The earth is a tiny, tiny miniscule dot in these multiple galaxies, and multiple universes that we know of. The planets in our solar system aren’t even that old. If we can map the age of them with the technology we currently have, I can only assume that there are things our there we can’t even fathom the age of. That we don’t have a number for yet. We are fucking insects, bacteria crawling around on the face of a giant rock. Our tedious issues mean nothing in the grand scheme of things... And sometimes it is difficult to wonder what DOES matter.

Everything needs balance and everything is a cycle.

People always want fact to prove a theory could be real. We are living in an era where anything is possible, and we are starting to realize it. I don’t mean that things are possible because of technological and developmental advancements, I mean we are discovering anything is possible because of those things, but they aren’t the reasons. The truth is, anything was always possible and we just didn’t know it.

If you look at certain facts, like the 82 year old Yogi who claims he hasn’t eaten in 70 years, or the Turritopsis nutricula species of jellyfish that is theoretically immortal through cell transdifferentiation, then things that we know to be fact seem interchangeable... But aren’t they always? Things are only fact because they are the only things we can prove at the time, but why do we need proof? Why does proof determine all tangibility? Can’t we just KNOW anything is possible and be satisfied? Some people are realists and claim that the people that can believe in anything (that we can fly, that we can live forever, that there is life after death, etc etc) are fantastical, that they live with their head in the clouds, are illogical, immature... But if we look at the FACTS...

We are all atoms and molecules that are constantly moving and interacting with their environments. So is EVERYTHING else in this world.

We are all interacting together all of the time. Can’t things shift and alter and create new realities? Isn’t that how new things evolve? And isn’t it possible that as we discover more and more the endless possibilities of our brains and bodies and world around us, we can become gods in our own right? That we can advance to the point of what we believe to be the highest point of advancement (self enlightenment, nirvana, God, supreme beings, aliens). And if everything is a cycle, and anything is possible, who’s to say that other beings aren’t just super advanced versions of ourselves that have left our planet in and the cosmic dust left behind trace amounts of themselves in microscopic organisms that re-evolved and started life on earth all over again... And if immortality IS possible (as seen in the jellyfish), and time is irrelevent and man-made and can be altered in space, who’s to say that its not some parallel universe where we ARE the aliens, and we re-live our lives over and over and we watch ourselves do it. Seems far fetched. Just as our world as a norm would have seemed to anyone hundreds of years ago. 

If we keep being re-born and time goes backwards and forwards again and again, like a movie you rewind, but a movie that’s live and changes slightly or greatly every time, would there be evidence left behind? Would we be able to see and discover our past selves? Is that what happens when we explore history?

Far fetched isn’t anything. Impossible isn’t anything, there are just some things our brains are not developed enough to understand yet, and as our technology grows to allow the growth of our brains, imagine how our world will be then!

Saturday, May 5, 2012

an uplifting

It is uplifting to realize that because our entire universe is perceived in our brain and our brain's are not fully developed enough to meet the universe's utmost potential, that there is never an end of the line to growth. We will always strive for more because we can't even fathom the end... the idea of acheiving everything. In our minds, and therefore our realities, the possibilities of our universe are actually limitiess and competley endless.

Monday, April 30, 2012

an abstract

Our knowledge and understanding of our universe is so vast and complex that sometimes it is hard to believe that we are just highly advanced organisms that are a by-product of trillions of molecules coordinating together to maintain a functioning and productive machine. Sometimes the thinking of it, the use of our higher cognition to think on abstract or symbolic concepts, can be maddening. If all organisms are hard-wired and tuned with survival mechanisms, why has the human brain developed to such extremes? When did the use of abstract thinking become interlocked with our ability to survive? I know from personal experience that in extreme cases, this abstract thinking has caused such frustration that I felt utterly lost in my world. That I felt nothing had a point or cause, and that life as we know it served no purpose or meaning. These kinds of thoughts are dangerous and depressing, and it is interesting that our brains are capable of such self-destructing emotions and ideas.

So, how can the balance take place? For me, I always remember that it’s important to know the how’s and why’s, but it’s more important to know that regardless of what we know, things just are. We can collect all the knowledge about something that is humanly possible, but it won’t change how the world is or functions, we’ll just understand it better.  (I say humanly possible because I don’t believe we are capable of completely understanding every single thing about an object, no matter how simple. Even if we believe and have scientifically proved we know everything about it, we only think we do because we can’t even conceive anything left to know). Now, arguably I could also say that when we understand something more we view it differently, thus altering the world as we know it in a subtle way, and the more we know the more things would be altered and technically our world would change.

It’s important to find the balance so that you don’t drive yourself crazy. I’ve seen the effects of over-thinking these things. I’ve also seen the effects of those that don’t think about it at all and hide in our society’s definition of a normal lifestyle, drifting through life day-to-day and caring only about their basic needs. Happiness, productiveness, prosperity.

Where is the balance between the two extremes; crazy and ignorant? How can we live life with the knowledge that life is meaningless? To write about “abstract” I have to talk abstract.

To me, I know that regardless of what I think I know of the world or how it functions, it is still my reality and I have to deal with it. I also know that the more positive of an outlook I have on things, the better my world tends to be.

Our brain is capable of asking why, but sometimes there are no more answers why and we get to the end of the line and our brain is still asking. I don’t believe it is possible to have all the answers, and what is really interesting is our mind’s being built to want them all. That just seems like a recipe for a maddening disaster to me.

So... Do we have a powerful creator that built us to derive our own impending doom? Are we supposed to get rid of ourselves to make things easier? If we look at the world as it is now, we are constantly slowly poisoning ourselves mentally and physically, and creating death and destruction. We are destroying everything we need to keep ourselves alive. We consume ourselves to death.... Yet we are supposed to be hard-wired for survival. It doesn’t add up.

Why does further advancement in ourselves equal further destruction to ourselves?

Even if there was a higher power that built us and is conducting some sort of freaky experiment, even if our whole lives are just a dream... No matter what we believe in, we still believe there needs to be a cause and an origin and a reason... But what if the believing in that is only an effect of how our brains are built? What if nothing actually does need a start or an end, and we only think it does? I mean our realities tell us that’s how thing’s work, but we also have no answers as to why it has to be that way.

No one’s ever considered something not having a start or an end... Because it HAS to, right? There are beginnings and ends, life and death. It is impossible for us to picture nothingness. I can picture “blank” as just blackness. But that’s still something. It’s still a big slab of black. It has a colour and a term. Beginnings and ends are all we know... But what if that isn’t it? What if what we know is wrong? Our brains, as advanced as they are, are still not advanced enough to provide us with the answers we crave.

Maybe there is a reason for that? Or maybe there is no reason for anything? Either way, what is our solution... If we want the answers and we can't have them... What is our next move?